Wednesday, October 31, 2007


For those of you non-portuguese speakers out there the title for this blog is "Feelings". I know I know sounds kinda cheesy but I just want to take a little bit of time and let everyone know who my life is going, what I have been up to, and how I feel about all of these things.
First of all I must tell all of you that the six month sebatical from dating was a no-go. I really tried but people just keep setting me up. It may sound like a pathetic gripe but really sometimes being set up is not the most fun thing in the world. The way I feel about being set up is that you never know if he is going to be someone that you can have fun with even if it goes nowhere and anyone who knows me knows that I am all about having fun and don't like to miss out on the good times.
Jordan, in the mean time has still been in the picture (kind of) by that I mean that he calls me every morning and sends me texts periodically throughout the day but most often I never hear from him after three of four o'clock in the afternoon cuz he goes to class and then he goes with his friends. The situation is ideal for him but you women out there know that we need so much more than a couple of convient minutes throughout the day!! Anyways last night I had a date when Jordan found out he got really mad for some reason and told me to have a nice life... Which is exactly what I intend to do!! He also told me that I will regret not dating him anymore and here is how I feel about that. For the last six months I have sat home the majority of the weekends because Jordan was out of town or had something else planned.. will I regret that?? umm no.. Also, Jordan and I argue about everything possible like the price of fuel or my PMS or what I should or shouldn't do at work etc. etc. etc.. Will I regret that I constantly am on the defense and that I can never just be right?? umm no!! Jordan has about zero patience with me. The other day I couldn't understand something he was saying so he yelled at me and when I yelled back and told him I didn't think that he was being nice he hung up on me. Only to call me back and ask me if I was ready to be nice to him yet... Will I regret being yelled at? NO will I regret that no matter what happens it is somehow my fault because Jordan is never wrong? HELL NO.. So basically the way I feel about Jordan and regretting not dating him anymore.. The only regrets I have are that I let him back into my life time and time again and that I stayed with him for as long as I did!!!
Now on to the picture of my friend Logan... As I mentioned before I have been set up a million times and honestly it is not very often that I would have the guts to request a picture before accepting to go out with someone but my sister gave my number to some girl so I didn't feel too bad asking them for a picture. Well heavens you can imagine my surprise when I get this picture knowing that this guy is 26, cute, single, owns his own business, owns his own condo, and is supposedly really nice. I would have been an idiot to say no... So I consent to go to just dinner with Logan and see if anything happens from there.. dinner happened last wednesday and things did go well so we went back to his place and played some video games which I really enjoyed. Two days later we went to dinner again and a haunted house. I usually hate haunted houses but I found myself this time just laughing and having a good time, basically the haunted house was fun because I was with Logan. Then Logan tells me that despite the fact that it hasn't been three days he would really like to go out again and even more than that he decides that he want to have me over to his place and cook me dinner!! Are you kidding me?!? So dinner goes well, we snuggle and laugh and honestly Jenga has never been so fun... The only question burning in my mind is.. If he going to all this effort why has he not kissed me? and Why does he not call me every day? I told my friends at work and they said that is a good sign but you know that it is nice to be reassured every now and again!!! So we will see what happens with Logan but I can tell you how I feel.. I feel peaceful and happy when I am with him. He has rough working man hands but yet they can be so soft and gentle and he gets nervous over certain things that I say and do and yet I think it is cute. I don't feel like I am in love or anything but I do feel like I wouldn't mind being in a situation like this with someone like this for a long time... Like forever?!? I have one more comment on my feelings... I have been so anxious and worried the last little while and haven't been sleeping well. Last night as I got home and was reading my scriptures I felt so calm and happy and peaceful. I feel like my Heavenly Father loves me and wants whats best for me. I feel him closer to me as I do the things that I know I should. I feel his spirit in my time of need and I feel safe knowing that he has and will always help me. I am not sure why I felt so peaceful last night, I hadn't really asked for anything but I feel like that is the Lord's way of letting me know that everything will be all right and to trust in Him. I feel grateful to know that gospel is true and grateful to know that he Lord really does have unconditional love for all of his children!!

Wednesday, October 17, 2007


This is my mom and her sister janeen. They are so funny together... My mom is like a miniature of my aunt so it always looks funny to see them standing by each other. My aunt is like a second mom.. I love her to death!! This picture is of my grandma's 90th birthday party. I hope that I can look half this good at her age.. Hopefully it is genetic!!!

This picture is of cade at lagoon... I know isn't he about the cutest thing you have ever seen?!? and he has the cutest personality too. The next day after this picture was taken I was babysitting and as I was putting Cade to bed he rolled over and rubbed my face and says "Let's talk about our day..." Holy cow.. for any boys or men that are reading this, that phrase right there is the key to any girls heart!!! Needless to absolutely love this boy..

Thursday, October 4, 2007

FaLL hAs ArrIveD

Holy cow can I even begin to tell you how much I love this time of year. I love that it is not too hot, not too cold, all you need is a light jacket!!! Ha ha just kidding but seriously I love the mountains covered in all the different colors and being able to drive with the top down in my convertible and letting the fall breeze blow my hair. I love seeing the pumpkins for sale on the side of the road and contemplating what I will be for Halloween this year! I thought this picture was amazing... I didn't take it but it is some place in Utah and I can't imagine how enchanting it would be to walk through this little path surrounded by these beautiful trees.

Well not that have expressed my thoughts on the season let me give a little update on life in the fast lane. Work is awesome!! My responsibilities are increasing everyday and time just flies when I am here. I love the environment and the fact that I haven't had to wear any of my dress pants for almost three months!! My boss is hilarious and I often tell him that I never know who he will be when I turn around to talk to him. Sometimes he is singing primary songs, sometimes he is doing a tap dance, lately he has been speaking in a British accent because he is going to the Led Zeppelin concert in Nov. Don't worry it is only going to cost him $4,000 dollars or so but it is their last concert ever so it will totally be worth it (yeah right!) The only drawback is that we can only listen to Zeppelin all day to get both of us ready for the concert (which I don't think is fair cuz I am not flying to London to see them and I do not LOVE Zeppelin).

Speaking of "Love" I am officially taking a six month sebatical from dating. After the last couple of years I need some time to think about my life and where I really want to be and who I want to be there with me. Jordan and I still talk, everyday, but we don't see each other and that is just fine with me. I am hoping that Jordan will find some girl who will just knock his socks off so he will leave me behind cuz it looks like until that happens he is not going anywhere. The way I look at it he is a good friend and there is no need to cause any extra drama in our lives right now.

I can not wait for conference this weekend!! I love to hear the talks and advice that we receive. I came across my notes from last conference and was thinking about all that was said and it made me even more excited for this conference. I went to the Relief Society general conference last weekend and they talked a lot about how we just need to hold strong to our values, not wavering and help our families and loved ones along the way. I am so grateful for this gospel and the blessing it is in my life. I received this really cool quote in an e-mail today that I wanted to share with you..."You were generals in the War in Heaven and one day when you are in the spirit world, you will be enthralled by those you are associated with. You will ask someone in which time period they lived and you might hear, "I was with Moses when he parted the Red Sea," or "I helped built the pyramids'" or "I fought with Captain Moroni." And as you are standing there in amazement, someone will turn to you and ask you which of the prophets' time did you live in? And when you say "Gordon B. Hinkley" a hush will fall over every hall and corridor in Heaven, and all in attendance will bow at your presence. You were held back six thousand years because you were the most talented, most obedient, most courageous, and most righteous."

Elder Boyd K. Packer