Sunday, September 2, 2007

The grass is not always greener on the other side!

So Jodi has already informed me that I am the worst blogger in the world and I realize this but there is not much that I can do ok?!? There has been a lot that has been going on in my life lately and this blog is not much of a priority.

Most of you know by now that Jordan and I are taking a break. Things between us had just gotten to the point that something had to be done. I think that the time apart has done us some good, I have for sure realized that the grass is NOT always greener on the other side. Here are a couple of real good examples of why I would make that comment.

The first little set back happened a few weeks ago when my sister set me up with this really cute kid from her ward. We had a great date, especially when you consider it was a blind date, there was some serious chemistry going on. Needless to say we ended up making out which was in no way part of my plans for the evening but I enjoyed it. Well I ended up never hearing back from him until I had some friends over to my sisters a couple of weeks later and he ended up being with some of the guys. Just my luck I know!! It ended up not being too awkward but still it bugs that he would have never called me back again.

Fast forward to last week, I had two dates and knowing my chances of having one of them turn out as well as my first date were slim to none I wasn't really looking forward to them. My first date on wednesday ended up ordering a beer at dinner and I was way more into his friend than I was him. The next date took me to Taco Bell for dinner and not just like the restaurant but we stopped at a gas station and he let me choose between Taco Bell and Subway :) I still chuckle when I think about it.

One more item to discuss... So Ryan my ex from like 2 years ago sent me a really random text the other day saying that he had dreamt that we got married to which I responded that I was single. We decided that we were going to hang out and catch up. I just didn't have a very good feeling about it so when he tried to get ahold of me I avoided his texts and calls (real mature I know.) Well later that night I did text message him to apologize and he still wanted to hang out but things just didn't work out. A little while later my neighbor came over and told me there were some guys lurking our around my car. When I went to see if they had done anything I realized they had stolen some little part off of my car. The police were called and I was pissed. Come to find out Ryan had been pissed off too so he thought it would be funny to take the parts off my car with full intentions of returning them. Well, Ryan and I never hung out and I don't think we will for a while.

So through the midst of all of these events I have been thinking a lot about Jordan and where we stand and our relationship. He was the first person I called when I found out someone had vandalized my car and he even went and ordered new parts for my car the next day. He is the person that I first think of when something funny, scary, exciting, interesting, or anything at all happens. We may not be perfect but we fit, better than I have ever fit with anyone in my life as a matter of fact. I don't know that I am 100% ready to jump back in to things but I think I will not be venturing to the other side of the fence nearly as much in the next little while!!


cheeks said...

wow jess...first of all, i am glad you posted! Second...i feel so out of things clear over here that i'm even more glad you update in detail so i feel a little closer to home.

It sounds like you are figuring some things out...and it's totally ok if you don't jump right back into it, but make him work for it for sure! There were reasons why it ended in the first place so just make sure his priorities are in order before you dive back in just because your blind date ordered beer and took you to taco bell! Love you!